"I Find it Kind Of Funny, I Find it Kind Of Sad" (That I am in emotional turmoil b/c of one little show about an island....)

How could you do this

i loved you so much

so cute so sweet

i thought you loved her

and what kind of sick and twisted mind would do that

there were easier ways ya know

I hate you

i used to love you

what is wrong with you?

i can't believe you

did you really think it would work out?

Did you think she would fall for that,

and forget what you have done?

Did you think that she would love you?

What did you expect?

Hah, well I'm sure you didn't expect that.

But you know what?

Even though I almost feel bad for you,

you totally deserved that

i mean,

YOU HACKING KILLED HER DAD AND YOU WERE IN COHORTS WITH THE GUY WHO KILLED YOUR MOM

BOTH OF YOUR MOM

that brings me to another topic

dude,

she's your half sister

WHAT HAS GONE WRONG

gah i'm so mad at you

so mad

so sick

so twisted

and yet,

i thought you were more

i loved you

Confrontation With A Cow

I'm jogging, and I'm very tired.

But I keep on going.

I need to do this,

Come on girl.

I start up my ipod.

Second Chance comes on

and my feet are running along

somewhat to the beat

"thump, thump, thump"

and the rain starts coming

down

down

not too heard though

I'm running past southview, past adam's house, and past lovely houses.

I make it up the hill,

it's all down from here

down 

down

and I look to my left as I am running

At the cows,

now trotting

jogging

at their dinner.

I smile.

It's so pretty right here,

and I look at one particular cow

coming closer

and closer

and it stops.

She stands there

staring at me

only a few feet away.

I stop too.

Just looking at her big, brown, beautiful eyes.

A couple seconds and a couple of cars pass

probably wondering what I'm going

Soon I start jogging back,

as does the cow for her meal is waiting.

It was like one of those moments in the movies

where the boy notices the girl

and the girl stares back

confrontation

with true love

except my confrontation

was with a cow

YES

We all struggle

as we grow

and we all learn

what we must know

Now the light is fading,

and everyone is giggling

I wonder if they really know,

that when we try to be different

we're really all the same

Does anyone else notice?

When we break free

we are really

only

kidding ourselves?

Everyone is similar

We care about the same things

Live in the same world

Laugh at the same things

Try to identify us?

We all are all grasping,

looking for a way

variety

but really

we are not

we are not

Drama

is the worst thing that could ever happen to us

and yet,

we all try to be different,

but don't we realize

we are really all the same?

By the light of the fire

I was pretty happy

and i just lied down in the grass

Hoping someone would join me

no one did

but it was fine

i looked on at my friends around the campfire

the music played again and again in my head

i looked at you

having so much fun

not a care in the world

you were an artist right then

taking pictures of the fire

and your laugh echoed

right through my hears

a sacred 

chime of bells to me

And i just stared at you

thinking

how happy i am

how happy you are

and i stared to sing out loud

"i don't see what anyone can see"

well that's certainly true i thought

as the next line formed in my mouth

"in anyone else"

"but you"

and you had no idea

what i was thinking right then

but

you probably could 

have

guessed.

<3

You also pointed out how i often complain about leaving

it's true

i don't complain too often i hope

but if i do

it's usually a pretty good reason

and then reason is

i was so happy right there

with you

with everyone

why would i want to leave that?

because  i know as soon as i do

my heart begins to yearn for you again

and i want to live in that moment

over and over

i want to stay in that happy place for ever

so if i complain about leaving,

i'm sorry

but i want 

to 

stay

with

you