My Movie List (Most of which i can not watch)

• Slumdog Millionaire (R)
  
• Milk (R)
  
• The Reader (R)
  
• Revolutionary Road (R)
  
• The Changeling (R)
  
• Frost/Nixon (R)
  
• Duplicity (PG-13)
  
• Doubt (PG-13)
  
• Man On Wire (PG-13)
  
• The Soloist (PG-13)
  

I'd Never Have Thought

I never thought I'd be bored of middle school

Last year I couldn't imagine 8th grade at all

I loved my school and I loved 7th grade

Well that's all changed.

I don't know exactly what it is

Maybe I miss those who are gone

More than I thought I would

Maybe I just don't like the curriculum

Maybe I'm not liking this 7th grade drama

Maybe I just miss hanging out with Ian and Griffin so much

Just forgetting everything and laughing about stuff that is really stupid

All I know is that I can't wait until high school

You're The Only One I Believe In

Look through this mist

forget the words that they said

forget the words that you've said

Remember that you're beautiful

Always 

it doesn't matter who's prettier

and who thinks that

You have to be confident in yourself

Cause if someone says

"you're the only one for me, I love you"

They mean it

Life is young right now

So use up as much of it you can

when your not cleaning the bathroom and thinking about whomever you think about

Go

life is yours

stop worrying whether you look like an idiot or not

You're you

and your great.

And you know what?

They love you.

So Maybe No One Won... That's Life

Just two girls

The story of two girls

Best friends,

always and always

through thick and thin,

Boys and drama,

Tears and the crying

Never was one mad at the other

Never did one regret their friendship

It seemed like so much,

but really,

it was just

a blip in a lifetime

to be forgotten soon.

And there ya have it.

The End.

Okay so I totally feel like deleting that post cause i have mood issues

but I'm not going to.

i feel i should keep it

but i guess i have a different point of view now

like that you just don't want to hurt me again?

maybe?

idk.

it makes sense now.

and i'm not mad.

And guess what tiv?

He was happy!

and he joked around!

And he was just the random funny kid i've always known

and i asked him if he was happy and he's like

"of course!"

maybe i've been unhappy

and now that i think about it,

i think i've just been less of myself

more boring

and uneventful

maybe it's both of us!

DARN PUBERTY!!!!!

DARN PMS!!!

haha

anyways

i'm happy now

and i had good phone convo with him

and he's happy,

so i'm happy.

Life is Phenomenal.

Be excellent to yourself!

Okay so you love me a whole hacking lot right?

then how come your afraid of falling back in love with her through email?

Is our relationship BORING you that much?

what the heck is wrong?

Why are you doing this?

If you have such potential of loving HER

then how come your hiding behind ME?

huh?

and you know what?

This won't even matter to you

Because you don't bother to go on and even check your email let alone your blog anymore

So I'm going to be harsh here because as soon as i start talking to you

I'll go all mushy and sympathetic

I tired of it

I just want it to go away

Why 

Why do you do that?

Why did you ever do it in the first place?

She...

She...

GOD BOY MAKE UP YOUR HACKING MIND

She has enough problems

without yours too

Can't you just be friends?

And if you love her so much,

then break up with me.

Honestly.

Because it would hurt less for you to do that

than for you to say something like that again to someone else.

Really.

Man,

I have issues.

I totally agree with Tiv

Am I boring you?

What's happened?

Why do you look like you're not happy anymore?

Have I done something wrong?

Why do you have nothing more to say,

to offer?

How come you never email me?

How come you never respond?

How come we have run out of things to say?

How come I never hear you say anything that makes my heart leap anymore?

What's going on?

I love you to death,

I don't love you any less,

but I want to make you as happy as possible,

and I think I'm failing.

Something went wrong

between here and there.

What was it?

Dear Friend,

Never once have we fought

That one time doesn't count

Never once have we hesitated to call

We practically live at each other houses

"The only one for me is you,

and you for me"

Nothing has ever really changed between us

We both have our faults

But we were made for each other

Like peas in a pod

We don't always have to be together

But we are the best when we are

We are the happiest

I've never wanted to not be with you

We have changed and grown old together

Different people,

but we have come so far, for so long

and we are the same on the inside

meant for each other

So this one's for you Tiv

And So It Goes, And So It Goes

Dear My Dear,

We have come so far

Have I changed?

Have you changed?

This life has changed

Things are different

But always the same

Look at that flower up ahead

Once wilted and dry

Now Blossoming with new life

We have grow older,

together,

but somethings will never change...

To You,

you probably know who you are

I feel really bad about writing that

but I didn't like what you wrote.

I'm sorry.

Actually I'm not.

I don't know...

I'm not usually like that

but don't diss people like that,

That is one thing I hate

The contra dance was awesome.

Next time I'm getting all of my friends to go b/c it was so much fun.

I know I sound like such a nerd and I never thought I would be into these things.

But I totally am.

I danced with all of these random people,

so older, some younger,

some I knew

like Alisa, cobb's sis

and Cassidy's little sisters.

Then I danced with Alaina and Maddy 

and then there was this really smelly guy 

who Alaina had to dance with like three times.

(haha)

AND THEN

(here comes the funniest part)

I saw Griffin, Matt, Joe, Tyler, Ian , Cassidy, and Michael all not dancing.

So I went up to Tyler and told him he was going to be my partner for the next dance.

At the next song,

I went up to him,

and he was refusing to come.

So I took him by the arm,

and dragged him halfway across the cafeteria,

him trying to wriggle free,

and me just pulling along telling him he was going to dance.

I'm a lot stronger than Tyler.

And he danced.

It was hilarious!

I spent so much time trying to get him on the dance floor that we missed the directions and totally improved almost the whole way down the line.

It was funny.

And griffin and joe joined in too so that was fun.

And Ms. Fary's kid kept out bidding my mom on some plush thing Molly mad and he hacking won it!

Darn Cooper!

haha so anyways I had fun.

Just thought I'd let everyone know.

What I really want:

1. A sleepover with some of my closest friends

2. to sing karaoke

3. To have a date to the dance again

4. To be happier and spazzier and do all the things I did last year

5. To have funnier phone convos

6. to be more fun

7. A light and dark green shirt and a blue sweater

She ran,

and she ran,

and she ran,

and she didn't stop running until she got there.

THE END.

A Wish For Something Different

Sometimes I wish I could write something that has absolutely no meaning.

Because when I do try to write something powerful and metaphorical, 

It turns out just like everyone else's story.

I want my blog to be different.

Not the same.

I want to write something simple like

"the cow jumped over the moon"

or

"Jack and Jill ran up the hill"

etc, etc, etc.

If only, if only I was given the gift to write.

Sadly,

I wasn't.

The Truths of Me

It's true,

sometimes I get too needy,

too dramatic,

too freaked out and sad over nothing.

Sometimes I wish too hard,

hope too much,

and think all my dreams will come true.

Then reality comes crashing down.

It's true,

sometimes I miss the things I can not have too much,

I have to let things go,

and accept life for what it is.

Sometimes I forget that.

It's a good thing I have all of my friends to remind me!

Life is for us to have fun,

to learn,

and to explore what we do not know.

To ask questions,

and be curious,

to laugh,

and to be silly.

There's no time to waste being tired and depressed over something that happened yesterday.

Or just because you feel like it.

So get your rest and eat your breakfast!

Do you ever annoy yourself?

My Custom Disease

I used to see you everyday,

Now I get excited if you email me during the weekday.

And now when I see you,

it's a living dream.

But the next day,

it's like a disease,

where I need more of what I just had,

an addiction.

An when I have so much fun,

and laugh so hard I cry with all my friends,

I ache for more the next day.

It's like the "Day After Disease"

Custom just for me!

Whoopee!!