First you must read "Y goes to war" because this is the sequel same story,different point of view
I'll try to bas as honest as possible
So let's see what this turns out to look like...
Ft (short for fatthing) really likes this boy fayburger a lot
loves him even
they've been going out forever
And she has no doubt that she loves him
and that he loves her
They're all mushy with each other,
and all the other things y mentions
They hold hands during science,
get yelled at during social studies
and think about each other in math and L.A.
one day fb (short for fay burger)goes on vacation
And he gets upset about something
but won't tell Ft
but she eventually finds out from y
and he was thinking that y was in love with him
she says that she's not
but he freaks b/c he thinks that y and ft will fight
but all is well
for the while...
Ft gets this suspicion
she is worried that fb likes y too
ft and y are best friends and ft loves y very much
but she can tell y likes fb
even though she denies it
She can tell...
And then one day Y asks Ft
"Say Ian P. likes you, and we're going out.One day he says that he's going to break up with you andgo out with me,what do you do?"
FT told her that any good friend would say NO WAY!
and then FT asked her if it had anything to do with her or Fayburger and she laughed and said no
well the good friend on my part was about to end...
Then another day while Ft is gone,something happens
Ft doesn't know whatbut she has ideas
like that y likes Fb
but they're both saying to Fatthing that she's going to hate them both
which is a foolish thing to say
Cause fatthing almost never hates anybodyand she certainly won't hate the two people she loves most in her life
But Fb won't tell Ft what is bothering himand neither will y
but on may 28th,at recess
Fatthing finally gets Fb to tell her what's wrong
He sits her down on a bench and she always knows the begining which her friend olivia has already filled her in on
y likes Fayburger.
But then there's a twist, Fb likes her back
not as much as he likes fatthing he says,but he loves her all the same
SHIT!!!! thinks fatthing!
He tells her what happened and all of the emails
and he looks so distressed
so upset with himself
She forgives him she doesn't care if he loves y
She loves and cares about him
and he says how he thought fatthing would walk away,but she insists taht she won't,and that it is all okay
she doesn't know what to think
At lunch she says "you really like him don't you?"
and y nods
Picture this,
y and fatthingsitting togehter at lunch
half sobbing
and asking the other if they hate them
Then enters nicole
Poor, poor nicole has no idea what's going no idea
and she won't know for another month=)
So this is how the rest of the week goes:
Fatthing sometimes feels as if she has been slaughtered from the inside out
shes hurting but it doesn't mean she's hurt
She tells Y and Fb that they can go out if they would like
she doesnt mind
of course she minds
it hurts
but if that's what they want,
then she has no other options
But it turns out that they don't want to
or that is what they at least tell Ft
They send her emails telling her "sorry"
they seem to make it worse
but she knows she can't feel bad for herself b/c
they are being hurt just as much
And Ft has many talks with Y
telling her how she feels
She feels jealous for a while
which hardly anyone ever sees in FT
but it doesn't mean she doesn't feel it
She knows she has to tell people her feelings
Or they will crush her
she can't keep this in
Sometimes she feels like they hate her
and she knows inside they don't
being hated is a fear everyone has
those who hate,
are just as afraid
as those who don't
Life goes on,
and Ft is trying to pinch this thing in the butt
but she doesn't know how to pinch it!
She sees things they write to each other
it hurts
they may not realize it
and she tries not too
She becomes paranoid about the little things
What they say
What they do
it goes on
its like she is sharing her boyfriend
She either wants him as a whole
or not at all
but she knows she doesn't want the latter
and she knows she can't have the first
So she tries to cope with the middle
She wonders what they are expecting by all of this
They could feel better and flirt more if they were together
She would live,
but never forget
And that's how Y would feel too
Or maybe she wouldn't live
who knows?
On the last day of school
FAtthing and Y are having a grand old time just being spazzy and free (oh, yes they are still great friends)
and Y gets a rock from fb
the rock that Ft and Y found at the beginning of school
it was heart shaped
it symbolized "ft's heart"
it was given to fayburger a while ago by Y
And he decides to give it back to Y
OUCH
Fatthing used to love this rock
now,
she doesn't hate it,
but she certainly doesn't want to see, or hear anything about his darn rock again
Fatthing doesn't know anything else about this part
but Fb and Y part with a hug
worried that they will never see each other again
ft just stares
ouch.
ah well...
That night fb calls Ft
he cries
Ft doesn't know what to do
again,
she tries to tell him its all okay.
his crying hurts FAtthing too
whenever Fb is upset,
Ft is 10X more upset
really.
its true.
The summer passes on,
they see each other a couple of times
and then Y moves
WhIch sucks
you may think Ft would be happy
NO WAY!
Ft loves Y and her moving away doesn't make anything easier
And as she does
Ft sees one of fb's and y's emails
They're both mad at each other (they always were..fatthing doesn't know why)
and so Y sends Ft one of their emails
There were some things in there Fatthing didn't want to see
and this is what sets her off
all these months of shoving her feelings away
she gets sad
very sad
and this is very unusual for FT
And after many emails, phone calls, and explanations
Ft finds out that Fb doesn't like Y anymore
a good thing?
yes and no
Ft wants to get mad at Fb
wants y and him to be happy
but what girl friend yells at her bf for not loving someone else?
no.
And so she feels relieved.
And after a couple of weeks she realizes
WHAT AN IDIOT SHE IS!
a bad friend indeed
worried about keeping her bf and not worrying about her bestfriend
fb is a best friend too
but she should have focused on both of them,
and not just one
very inconsiderate
She apologizes
but of course she is too late
she should have made her tiny half brain think of this a couple of months earlier
And this is the point at which Fatthing gets stuck when ever she thinks of this
she loves Fayburger,
and doesn't ever want to let him go
But she wants to do something for Y too
how?
what?
too late now,
best she can do is be a better friend
(Y and FT are still good friends
better friends even,
this has made them stronger
which is amazing!)
and so she makes a wish for Y every night
and misses her so much
and sometimes the fact that Y still loves Fb slips her mind
and she is lost in ignorant bliss
but then lucky she has nicole (who now knows everything(finally))
to remind her of Y's love
and then of course she has Y
and this is good
b/c we can't let Fatthing's head get any fatter
So did Fatthing win the war?
You could say so,
but it doesn't mean she want to win,
or at least win like this
