It's Funny, Isn't It?

It's funny, isn't it?

This was just mentioned the other day

This blog thing

and today is the day when I need to use it

Funny how these things are

It's funny, isn't it?

How quickly you go from trusting one person's words completely

to accusations and skepticism so quickly

A person you love

lies straight to your face

funny how these things work

It's funny, isn't it?

how just last week

we ordered the most important things in healthy relationships to us

my number one

is honesty

funny, isn't it?

Well, actually, it's not funny at all

It's so damn hard to think about

It's hard to confront the person

who you believe in so much

about one little thing another person has said

It's even harder

when you accuse first

when you ask that first question

"did they do what they said they did?"

and you jump to conclusions

It's funny how I am so afraid of that typical guy

that stereotypical guy who cheats and lies and never loves

it's sad how when i ask you

There really is another story

how I got thinking way to fast

It's funny how I say to myself I won't cry

But I do

But you're not mad, not upset, not scared

you tell me the truth

what really happened

you have no proof

and somehow

I totally believe you

It's funny, isn't it?

I love you so much

I could never be furious with you

I was barely mad before i talked with you

I just needed to hear what you had to say

thank you

Thank you for listening to me

and being honest

DingDongDangDAMN

It's stupid

I never believed any of it

haha it's Vermont

why should I?

Well I was wrong

It certainly is Vermont,

but I guess it's just like everywhere else

Honestly I thought I didn't care

Honestly i didn't care

Honestly I apparently only care

When someone I care about takes that road

And honestly,

I hurt

just thinking about it

I can't fix you,

I can't fix anyone.

Heck, It probably won't ever make a difference

but it sure as hell makes a difference when I can't stop thinking about it.

When i am with you

i have a blast

and it is fun

you remind me so much of him,

but you are still unique 

and i love that

but when i am with you

it makes me miss him so much more

How do I tell you

how do i say,

it doesn't matter what they think

it's just us

and we want this

How do i say

that i would never ever think of doing something like that to you

i know all to well how it feels

i wouldn't do that

i know all to well how it stings

how do i tell you

i could never love another

ever

when i can't even find the right words

to tell you

how much i  love you

How do i say this

when my brain is crowded with thoughts

thoughts of you

how long i have waited for this,

for us,

how good it feels to be here

how can i tell you this

when i am so distracted

by your eyes, your lips, your hands

intertwined within mine

how can i find the words that are lost?

that words have not yet been found

The ones to be discovered

how do i do that,

when i can think nothing

but of you

For once i had trouble finding to the words to

let you know i was going nowhere

the words to soothe you

or to let you know

i need you

how to i tell you not to worry

when all i can think of are three little words

that have to tell you all of this

in three little words

is all i can think of

is not nearly enough

but all i can think

three little words

i 

love 

you...

and more

One Ordinary Night

A girl

just a girl

a boy

just a boy

just friends

cool ocean breeze

just a breeze

the moon

just the same moon that's there every night

the earth

just the earth that keeps turning

just a small town

an ordinary town

things

just things like they're supposed to be

and suddenly

everything changes

and it is not

one ordinary night